As 2010 comes to an end, I find myself breathing a sighing of relief. This year has been one of the most trying of my life.
I guess I have always known that growth comes in conjunction with trial. At the beginning of 2010 I asked God to grow me this year. To work out my struggles and shortcomings. I was determined that I would not be the same at the end as at the beginning. As the saying goes, "Be careful what you ask for." God is so faithful. He has answered my prayer. But in such a painful process my soul still aches in the residual affects of His Chastisement.
God is gracious. When I couldn't find a way to help myself become better, the Lord became my strength.
The trials of my year have not only affected me, others close to me have also been influenced... some not as positivelly as I might have hoped.
This year I have learned that God's hand is on everyones lives; we choose how we respond.
One who is very dear to my heart has not embraced God's hand as I have. I saw this person turn to the world for answers instead of to God. It has greived my heart so entirely. I have pleaded, cried, begged, and pleaded again to my God for this dear person, but as of yet, there is no great change.
Yet I have great hope. God has brought me though so much. I understand what God is capable of better now than ever before. He began a good work in both of us, and I believe He will be faithful to complete it.
As I reflect back, I can't help but wonder what problems I would have caused myself had I RESISTED the Lord's chastening.